Exploration Within

My Personal Journey

Though the years I have discovered that it is the dark shadows within me that shine light on the areas I need to heal in order to become whole. I started on my journey of healing and self-discovery when I was in my early twenties. During my young adult life I suffered from bulimia and drug addiction. Both were a way for me to cope with painful feelings around my personal family life and the ideals projected on to me as a woman in society. It takes courage to change a pattern of protection, even though that pattern is self-destructive. I had to really examine and sit with my discomfort in order to set myself free. To heal from my eating disorder I had to learn to see myself differently, to love my body, and completely changed my relationship with food. To release the hooks of alcohol and drug addiction I had to develop ways to look deep inside myself, to sit still, and become a silent witness to my actions. It is these tools that continue to help me walk through life truly joyous, happy, and free. I know healing as a process. One that needs guidance and support. Though the years I have sifted through many layers of pain and discomfort; all difficult, and all liberating. I have had many teachers.Two of my greatest teachers are my children. I raised two beautiful boys on my own. Their lessons for me started at each of their births. My first son was born cesarean; an experience left me feeling inadequate and powerless. I did not want to have the same experience with my second son so I chose to give birth to him at home. In order to have a home birth I had to work through my painful first experience, and learn to believe in myself and trust my body’s natural ability to create and birth a life. I uncovered facts about birthing naturally and read stories of other woman’s personal experiences. I began to feel more empowered and started to create and envision the brith I wanted. I slowly began to move out of a space of fear and into a place of inner confidence and peace. This is were I began to understand and connect to the sacred space of my womb, and for the first time embrace my power as a women. As I continue to move along my life path I continue to awaken and grow closer to the Goddess within. As I heal each layer of myself, I become more and more aligned with wholeness, happiness, and love. I feel called on to share my journey, inner wisdom, and all the tools I have used on my healing path. I have realized that it is a deep rooted love for Self that gives you endless power, strength and everlasting joy. With these practices and tools I hope to guide you to these gifts within yourself.